Things I've learned

Last night as I lay awake after one of my many trips to the restroom I decided to grab my ipad and check out Facebook and behold there was a message from a very old friend. The message from my friend was in regards to my blog and it was filled with so much love that it truly melted my heart.

I don't tell many people about my condition, I'm not exactly sure why I don't but it is what it is and I haven't told many people about my blog so I'm not sure how she found it but I'm glad she did. I started this blog because it is so much easier to get it out here than talk to people about this embarrassing condition.

After I read this message from my friend I still lay awake thinking and I came to some realizations. To start I have learned so manny things about myself as well as life and I've decided to write a list so here it goes:

1. I have learned to have faith in God again, even when I am unsure of why things are happening to me.

2. I have learned that even on my worst days I am stronger than  I think.

3. I have learned that friends do not come a dime a dozen and I am pleasantly surprised at the ones that God keeps bringing back into my life.

4. I have learned that my marriage isn't as perfect as I thought it was but I am glad that my husband and I got married for all the right reason because we are surviving this horrible condition together.

5. I have learned that stay at home moms do a whole lot more than I ever gave them credit for and it is a hard thankless job.

6. I have learned that I can't plan my life and everyday I'm learning how to go with the flow.

7. I have learned that depression is a bitch but I can keep moving through it because I have hope.

8. I have learned that that I can still have pretty days even though I am stuck with this stupid skinny body right now.

9. I have learned that sometimes a 6 year old can be wiser and stronger than most adults. My little angel is sometimes my rock on my bad days.

10. I have learned that when I feel alone, I'm not alone because God has my back and continues to bless me.

11. Lastly I have learned that people will always surprise you one way or the other.

GOODNESS! When I number these things it sure seems like a lot. There is plenty more I have learned but I think this is a good start.